my friends are all sick and tired of hearing about my breakup. I can tell they have likely all agreed amongst themselves that I’m being crazy and want me to shut the fuck up about it already. It really hurts honestly that they are so dismissive. Yes it’s been months. You think it’s driving YOU crazy?? I’m going literally insane. I’m doing almost everything I can think of to get over it and yet I still think about it and am tortured over it every moment of every day since it happened. I can shut up about it but I promise you guys I’m still gonna be thinking about it, but I’ll just be alone with my thoughts, which seems super healthy 🙃 like…you think I’m being ridiculous but it’s a cover for how seriously fucked up I am. Not just over this, but like, in life. Im not gonna kms over this, but sometimes I imagine if they’d all feel sorry if I did.
I got to see some leyendecker pieces in person! He’s a really big inspiration of mine so one of the things I focused on was the actual close ups of the brush strokes in his pieces bc they’re so cool
anyways (I say this as someone who is deeply critical of the united states government, military, unchecked capitalism, police, etc) I am SICK of people treating america as if it has no cultural value or positives so….. I love u 85 million acres (bigger than italy) of national parks. I love u harlem renaissance. I love u groundhogs day. I love u sweet tea and fried chicken and jambalaya. I love u apple cider donuts and maizes on crisp autumn days. I love u 95k miles of coastlines and new england fisherman and hand knitted sweaters. I love u halloween where millions of people dress up and give candy to strangers and carve jack o’lanterns. I love u small talk and small towns and potlucks and bringing over casseroles to your struggling neighbors. I love u cowboys and ranch hands and arizonian cactus. I love u appalachian trail and dirtbikes and divebars. I love u sparklers and fireflies. I love u mark twain and toni morrison and emily dickinson and henry david thoreau. I love u rock n roll i love u bluegrass and hippies i love u jimi hendrix and nirvana and CCR and janis joplin. I love u victorian houses and jonny appleseed and john henry and mothman and bigfoot. I love u foggy days in the pacific northwest and neon signs and roadside attractions. I love u baseball and 1950s diners and soft serve. I love u native american art and pop art and poptarts. I love u blue jeans and barbecues and jazz musicians
I would genuinely love to hear what a resident of china or russia loves about their home bc I’m not a fucking bigot and I know a government doesn’t define a culture but thanks for ur exposing yourself babe xoxo
“On earth, the terrible things and the beautiful things
continue to happen beside each other. On the moon in the darkness, nothing.
On earth in the darkness, sometimes rain swells like applause.”
— Jeffrey Morgan, from “All Night No Sleep Now This” published in BOAAT (via pigmenting)
No One Ever Helped Me So I Will Never Help Anyone Else & Do Not Believe Anyone Should Be Helped Ever is one of thee most loser mindsets btw
the world has been unkind to you so you continue the cycle of unkindness by passing on hatred and indifference to others? Wow. groundbreaking. you’re so cool and tormented
